codeword
i really need to finish my work here. code is sloppy. needs updating and cleaning. story of my life.
back to the grind after one of the most utterly relaxing weeks i’ve had in a very long time. it’s very easy to forget about things – even simple pleasures like spending the night on the couch watching television. it’s been a very very long time since i’ve done that.
got a lot of thinking done. got a lot of mental re-adjusting done. make a lot of decisions. disconnected and reconnected.
the last few days, however, have made me realize just how much more thinking i have left to do. my life is full of loose ends. physically, mentally, emotionally. brain feels like the code here. elegant stuff mixed with poorly written gibberish. jargon and comments in the margins. whole bits commented out for further work. risk breaking the metaphor to consider running a compiler through the mess. see what errors pop out.
then again, maybe that’s what’s just happened. hard to say. do feel like i’m in a state of error though.
“how many options do you have?”
she said. he said.
the trick is to realize you have as many options as you need. if they’re worth it to you.
i’ve always been pretty good at reinstalling. reinventing. we’ll see how this goes.